Last day of Temp Life

Today is formally my last day of life as a temp staff. If nothing goes wrong, it should be my last. Haha. Going to slack for a while until i start my life as an adult worker at Deloitte on the 11 of Aug. Abit nervous, dunno what i might face in the adult working world, scally kanna some bad boss, then made me do all the shit work. I have to tahan for 3 years at least to get my CPA, but i'm scared tat i cannot tahan and kan the boss, then siao liao. Haha. On the other hand, i'm very excited, going to earn my first salary with more than $1.5k. I was thinking of my expenses with Jia Hao that day, then siao liao, its not going to be enough. I still got about $15K of debt to pay off. I'm starting with a credit account, a huge one somemore. Planning to pay off everything before 2010, then save up for a car, then continue to be in debt again. Hahaha. Life in Singapore is all about debt and paying off debt and having new debts again. I want to be able to spend without thinking twice about its cost. Soon, this day will come!!!

Graduation

On the 22nd of July, I reached a certain milestone of my life. I finally put on the mortarboard and become a graduate. Lazy to write much, i will just show my pics during the convo then.

First, this is Kelvin Kok, my fellow NTU accountancy hall mate. He is the former president of my hall. He helped me pull string to get a single room during my final year, thanks alot! Even though he is my president, i am his captain, so in a way, its fair, haha.

This is Shu yun, fellow hall mate also, Kelvin's gf. Very violent, but is a very nice person if you dun step on her tail.

This is Diana, another fellow hall mate, but she is from Business. Quite tall, heng i still taller.

This is Jeannie, with a ghost dunno trying to do what. Jeannie always say i very fierce, but i so nice to her loh, purposely lose mahjong to her leh. Dunno how to see people one.

The rest of my hall fellow graduates, Ming Rui beside me, then Weijie, Kelvin, Diana, Jinteng, Jeannie, Nanping and Jiahao.

Cindy Tan, secondary school class mate, she came for her sister's convo, 2 years in army really make us lose alot of time. She is younger than me one leh, but she so mature already and i still haven start working. Sigh... Some even going to get married soon.

My gang in NTU, without Jia Hao who dunno go where. From left, Sheila, me, Priscilla, Li Wei, Jin Rong and Kar Hon. Had alot of fun time with them, but now all splitting up, abit yi yi bu she, haha.

My Father, bu xiang hoh?

My mother.

Me receiving the empty booklet, abit bo liao, waited for 1 hour plus listening to talks which nobody pay attention to, then finally received an empty booklet from someone who i never even see before, dun even know his name.


Listen to me talk better mah, hahaha.


Bored? Then listen to me sing loh, haha.


My sister who rushed down from work.


My family, except my elder sis who is at work.


One of my best friends, Elton, who purposely came down for my big day. So honoured!!!


Together with Jason, another good friend and Binghan.


The 3 musketeers, a name given by a tutor.

Lifen, a friend i knew in Year 1, an active reader of my blog, haha, must help promote.


ORD LOH!!!


My elder sister who took this picture after i changed and going to sleep.

My sister who so bo liao, wanna wear my gown and take picture. Haha, let you take bah, but its better to go study to wear your own gown.

Thats all! Actually also no special feeling for this lah, just another day to me.

I should be a Detective!

Wah man, I can't believe it, my deduction skill is damn accurate. Its so accurate that its scary. I should go be a police detective! I think i got sixth sense! Out of nothing i see a sign of this, a sign of that, then piece them together to form a story. And the pieces have very little link only.

Recently, this happened again, i link this to that and form a story, then after checking with an informant, my story is correct. Haha. Its so scary sia, happened alot of times already.

I think i should make a good auditor, can link here link there, then can find fraud easily.

Sigh, so stupid!

PS: someone juz told me that a blog is for lonely people to write for lonely people to read, true anot? Up to individual bah.

The new Ernest!

Last time i thought i hate hypocrites, but then i start to think in their shoes and i begin to understand why they are like that. I believe that everybody are and should think about themselves and be selfish one way or another. Hence, hypocrites are not so distasteful. Then i thought i hate bad-tempered people the most, but then something must have happened to make them bad-tempered, so actually i should empathize them. Today then i found out actually i am more alike to my father than i ever thought, i DON'T like to see people's lian se, or have to rely on another for a favour, have to do everything to please the person.

I hate it. I don't like and don't want to see someone else's face, just to enjoy a little convenience. People who know my father should know he is damn stubborn, will never accept to see another's face. Well, i am beginning to be like that, i hate it to accept relying on someone else's mood. I want to be independent, i want to just rely on myself. I know in reality, everyone has to rely on everybody, i accept that. What i mean is i will not lower myself just so that someone will give me a dollar more. I AM NOT A BEGGAR!!! I know in the business world, i have to lower myself to the boss, to the clients, even to fellow colleagues. But that is a limit.

For now, i will endure, but i want to get out of this cycle. In order to get out of this cycle, i must be RICH AND POWERFUL. I find out one thing from my last 10 years. To not take shit from people, i must either be powerful or rich. I found my goal: I WANT TO BE RICH AND POWERFUL! I shall not be so slack anymore, i shall work hard for everything, be the best there ever is. To give my best is no longer enough, now i want to make sure it is the best! Today, the new Ernest is born!

PS: FH, you wait, one day it will be you who needs to depend on me!
PSS: I know this entry abit OFF, such an angry person, but i need a way to vent out my frustration. Sorry.

Very bored

Nothing to do at work today, very sian, after like 1 month, finally back to the slacking days, but then i dun like it. Its so damn bored, nothing to do at all. I prefer the busy busy bumble bee days. Haha, i'm so fan jian, give me slack, i dun like. My personality is like that, u give me things, i dun wan, u dun wan give me, then i wan it, have already then regret. Stupid me.

Recently, my special friend and i quarrel AGAIN, so stupid, its like quarrel every few days, but i think this time its the final one, cos i won't give in already. Actually not quarrel lah, just buay song each other. My this friend very stubborn one, even if hurt me damn badly, so won't give in. This time its too much already, i also wun give in. When 2 dun give in, then it will be cold war until it doesn't matter anymore. I thought it doesn't matter already, until last night then the feeling sits in. Sigh... Time to let go le. Special friend got alot of other friends, flings, family, so don't think it will matter to this friend. Take care my special friend if you sees this!

Back to office hours, last week got games week, then Jiahao and i go and chap jit kar, only both of us playing chess lah. Office cannot add photo, later go home then add in bah.

1 lousy mistake does not make me for who i am

Recently, i heard a statement, cannot really remember, but it is something like "the only thing that doesn't change is people will never learn from the history." How true man! People always like that, never ever learning from history, even if a man knows what will happen for a certain event, the man will always think that he is greater than the past and will do better than the past people, but like how history always flow, the result is the same as the past. Ah, i dun even know what I'm saying.

What i meant is I always think I'm better than others, will do better than the rest, this "hope" thing that i talked about in my previous post is my Achilles heel, but in the end i always screwed up and be part of history. An example is that everyone knows, one must study hard to score well in exams, but i always think i can be like the past, last minute, then can score well, but then i screwed up, didn't do well at all.

Another random thought: I'm definitely better than how you think of me, my English may not be good, my communication skills may be lousy, i may not to be handsome and fit, but i got my other good points. 1 lousy mistake does not make me for who i am, everyone deserves another chance, as many as possible. I am who i am, i maybe like nua nua slack slack now, but i will fight for my $10ks when the time is right.

PS: Just cause i never say anything does not mean i dun care and i can take it, everyone has a limit and mine is nearly there. If one treats another like shit, the other has the right to leave.