The new Ernest!

Last time i thought i hate hypocrites, but then i start to think in their shoes and i begin to understand why they are like that. I believe that everybody are and should think about themselves and be selfish one way or another. Hence, hypocrites are not so distasteful. Then i thought i hate bad-tempered people the most, but then something must have happened to make them bad-tempered, so actually i should empathize them. Today then i found out actually i am more alike to my father than i ever thought, i DON'T like to see people's lian se, or have to rely on another for a favour, have to do everything to please the person.

I hate it. I don't like and don't want to see someone else's face, just to enjoy a little convenience. People who know my father should know he is damn stubborn, will never accept to see another's face. Well, i am beginning to be like that, i hate it to accept relying on someone else's mood. I want to be independent, i want to just rely on myself. I know in reality, everyone has to rely on everybody, i accept that. What i mean is i will not lower myself just so that someone will give me a dollar more. I AM NOT A BEGGAR!!! I know in the business world, i have to lower myself to the boss, to the clients, even to fellow colleagues. But that is a limit.

For now, i will endure, but i want to get out of this cycle. In order to get out of this cycle, i must be RICH AND POWERFUL. I find out one thing from my last 10 years. To not take shit from people, i must either be powerful or rich. I found my goal: I WANT TO BE RICH AND POWERFUL! I shall not be so slack anymore, i shall work hard for everything, be the best there ever is. To give my best is no longer enough, now i want to make sure it is the best! Today, the new Ernest is born!

PS: FH, you wait, one day it will be you who needs to depend on me!
PSS: I know this entry abit OFF, such an angry person, but i need a way to vent out my frustration. Sorry.